Someone might call it an experiment, others may call it torture, but I ran out of words to call it a day ago. I'm tired, the kind of tired that makes you wonder at your own existance. The kind of tired that grabs your heart, shakes you, and empties your pockets.
I have learned that when you're hungry, it's hard to choose what you want to eat, because everything sounds good; it's like that too, I get ready for bed and become so excited that I'm going to get to sleep that suddenly I am so awake and excited that I cannot sleep… so I let my mind wander, and as it drifts from one thought to the next my thoughts get intricate, and my mind gets lost in the heart of it. It's a beautiful jungle of daydreams, but in the end, I believe it isn't the same as actually sleeping.
I am sleep proof… like a fish is water proof. I have learned that when you know how being sleepy affects you you can just choose to not let it affect you in that way… it only works for the first and second phase of being sleepy (the third phase is where your body passes out no matter what you want). For example, one sign of being sleepy is getting grumpy, I know that's a side effect, so when I feel like getting grumpy, I don't. I also know that it's hard to do great work, so when the work matters I double check it. (or triple check it)
Once upon a time, we needed to buy a Christmas tree. For the last 3 years we have had Real Christmas trees, this year I announced the frustration from a real tree being too much, to which the children wept, wailed, and begged.
I'm not a hard hearted person, most of the time, not where the kids are concerned (and when it's not that big a deal… and when a decent looking fake tree costs $300) We decided to once again venture into the 'woods' and discovered trees very similar to what we've done in the past… but we've discovered something more as well… there's a real tree that has a pot! Which was like having a real cut tree, but afterwards, instead of burning it and upsetting the neighbors… you plant it! and upset the neighbors in another way.)
We found a tree, we brought it home, and when it was put up, discovered that it was a tree with character.
Today was one of those red letter special days that will go down in the history of the Family as being wonderful. My oldest boy, has turned 12, and with it comes a special opportunity. He was able to recieve the Priesthood, the literal power of God given to man on earth to accomplish his will. It's a big deal, and it was a big deal for him too!
The final edit will probably involve me removing the street lights hidden in the background, but for now I'm totally ignoring them.
I'm ignoring them here too. (Huge pet peeve is that now I realize that the focus from the camera discovered the beautiful plants to the bottom left… they are SO CRISP, which isn't what I would have otherwise hoped for.)
Gilbert, Arizona Temple, (It will have an open house in January through February!!! So you can actually see inside it before it is closed to the public!)